Adoption Diaries

Has anyone else seen Adoption Diaries on WEtv? I wasn't sure that I wanted to get into it because I knew I'd get hooked, and I was worried it would be too emotional for me. Well, I was watching The Locator, which also makes me emotional (but I still love it!), and Adoption Diaries just started right after that. I was intrigued by the woman's story and then I couldn't turn it off. I ended up watching two episodes, which both ended with the adoptive parents getting to take home their babies, but of course, for the drama, they make it seem as if that might not happen. Gosh! What an emotional roller coaster! I really have to applaud those couples/families in the adoption process. They are so incredibly strong and understanding, it's amazing.
The women's stories were sounding a little too familiar and it was making me sad and scared. One of the adopting moms said that she had 4 miscarriages and learned that she has an auto immune type disease where her body thinks the pregnancy is a foreign body to be expelled. She said that she'd hear a heart beat one week, then it'd be gone a short time later. That of course got me wondering and worried if I have the same problem. I tried to look it up on the internet, but I don't know what this particular ailment is called, and I couldn't find it. However, I did find other articles/comments about miscarriage, and those just led me down hill. It only made me more upset to hear the "doctor" respond that there is nothing you can do to prevent miscarriage, it's just nature's way of getting rid of what wouldn't make it anyways; and then to read what all the other women were going through, it was heart breaking.
Here is my advice: Don't search the internet for answers to your fears or concerns. Most of the time, it only makes them worse, and chances are, that stuff doesn't apply to you anyways. It's best to ask your doctor any questions or concerns you have. Every woman, couple and situation is so individual, I don't think we can ever compare ourselves exactly.
Good luck with all your efforts, let us know how it's going!

Thank You!

I just want to say thank you to everyone for all your sweet comments. I'm feeling much better now. Not so bummed out at least. I'm still doing my best to keep busy. And yes, junk food helps! Sometimes I really want to curse these hormones, but then again, without them, we wouldn't ever be able to bare children, right?
All I can say is, I LOVE Sundays! Even if nothing specific happens, I always feel better when I'm at church and then bring that good feeling home. Too bad it kinda wears off by Monday eh. But we'll keep trying!
I hope you all had a wonderful holiday weekend and have a wonderful short week! Let me know if you are feeling bummed out, or if you have any questions you want to ask that someone else here might be able to answer. Or let me know if you are having success or frustrations. I want to know what's going on with all of you! Thanks for all your support to me and each other.

Kenna's Writing a Book!

I copied this post from Kenna's Blog.

I like writing.
Obviously.
Now, that doesn't necessarily mean I'm good, it just means I have found an outlet that really helps me cope and move through some hard, HARD situations in life. This is a blessing.
A blessing I tell you.
I have been able to tell my story to so many people via this blog. In return, I have met some of the most amazing individuals. I wouldn't have been in contact with them if my life had taken a different turn. This is a classic example of your trials really enhancing your life.
So, my friends, let's enhance our lives. Let's help enhance others' lives.
I know there are so many women that have read my blog who have been in the same, or similar, situations before. Struggling with infertility and all that it entails. From treatments, to procedures, to adoption. The medication, the appointments, the despair. So many of you haven't told your story. I know it's hard. This is such a private battle.
But...
Maybe...
You would like to share now?
I want to put together a book. (Most likely via blurb) I want to put all of these stories into one compilation. I have been wanting to write a book for so long, but I realized I can't touch as many people as ALL OF US can touch. There are so many stories, situations and because every one's experience with infertility differs, we need a 'book' that will offer many different stories and experiences of disappointment, and hope, and faith. Of trial and error. Of loss, of gain, of blessings.
Now, see, I can't do this without your help.
So please, if you would like to share your story, if you would like to be involved, get in touch with me. I would love for ANYONE who wants to be a part of this project to, well, be a part of this project. I think it could help heal wounds, broaden horizons, and help us connect and again, enhance our lives.
So, will you join me?
Will you?
Email me: kennagoesemo(at)gmail(dot)com
Please, spread the word. Post it on your blog. If you know someone who might be interested in participating, let them know. Also, to all my wonderful anonymous commenters who have shared experiences, join in.
UPDATE
After talking with on of my besties, Lauren, I am thinking I want to include some experiences from those of you who have friends & family dealing with infertility. How you feel, what you think helps, what you think doesn't, etc. So, if there are any of you who would like to participate in that as well, just lemme know.

In the News Today

I saw this story in the news today.

Plea deal in the works for man accused of beating pregnant girl
July 8th, 2009 @ 11:26am
SALT LAKE CITY -- A plea deal could soon be reached in the case of a man accused of beating a pregnant woman so she would have a miscarriage.
Arron Harrison is currently charged with second-degree felony attempted homicide in connection with the beating in May.
Prosecutors say the 17-year-old girl asked Harrison to help her terminate her pregnancy, and he did so by punching her repeatedly in the stomach.
The Salt Lake Tribune reports lawyers for Harrison told a judge on Tuesday they are working with prosecutors to bring the case to a conclusion without going to trial.
The 17-year-old has already pleaded guilty to second-degree felony criminal solicitation to commit murder.
The baby survived the attack and will be placed in care of the state after birth.

I have to say, I did not have nice thoughts after reading this. I know kids are stupid and some think they should be pardoned because their brains aren't developed enough to tell them just how stupid they are... but honestly... I was thinking that this kid should not get off on a plea deal, and the girl should not be able to ever get pregnant again (not that we have any control over that). Maybe that's too harsh, but that is how stories like this make me feel. There are so many wonderful people out there who want to have families more than anything, and stupid teenagers do things like this.
Sorry, I'm off my soap box now.